Hello. 3 years ago after I’m graduated from vocational high school I would like to continue study go to college but I can’t, since my parent have financial problem, I mean they don’t have enough money to send me go to university, my sister still study on Nurse academic and my young see more sister was study. i’m sad my life down, but I pretending everything is ok, I tell my mother, no problem if I didn’t continue study, for me study 12 years is enough, I can working right now, but on night I’m crying and I only tell my best friend about this, only he could understood how bad my situation, she told me to be patient and working hard save money for me using continue my study, and after few week I’m working, I comfortable with my job, I meet new people and gain more experience, but honestly is hard for me. I see my friends they enjoy their time, they don’t go to working earning money by their self, their parents prepare everything for them, I’m jealous with them,. if im on my job I feel nothing happened I’m look ok, but when I meet my friends with their uniform , I’m become more disappointed with my parents for didn’t send me to university, but I know nothing they could do, I know it’s not easy for them to let their daughter go working on 19 years old, too young. and I tried to understood them, no money. mean, I had to help my parents earning money. my home to my working place is take 30 minutes by motorcycle, it’s quite far, but I keen doing that, it’s was my daily activity, go working on 06:30 and be home on 05:00 PM. I forget the *problem* I have since I want working and save money for 3 years coming for me continue my study. I have been working for 2 years 2 months, 3 month I’m working at Shop, 1 Month at Supermarket and I’m currently working as Staff at Shrimp & Cold Storage, my job getting better, from coolie to being office girl. I’m thank you for all what God done in my life. slowly I could forget my sadness, my problem and everything that make me cry when I get flash back about what happened to me 2 year ago, it’s too hard, difficult time in my life, I have think that God far from, God didn’t love me, God Unfair with me, he cruel to me, but today I admit I’m the fool one, I didn’t believe God prepare the better planning for me. I could say that my currently job is my dream, working as office girl, just sitting in room of conditioner air and face with computer :) easy job for me. on October 2012, I had discuss with my parent that if God willing next year I’m going to continue my study, and they give me approval. I’m happy my parent allow me. I hope it’s really happened, I’m miss being student, I miss studying. Guys, I’m still need learning more, and come closer to God, let He pouring me with blessing and give me the bright future. this is my story, I never tell anyone about this, because I’m shy. hope you could understand the every single word I typing down, I have a lot of story to tell about what God done in my life, but my English is bad.